I love you for merely what you present to me...I love to hear your laugh, to see yr smile…to hear your breath and see your face while you were sleeping.
I love you not coz who you are, but for what you bring to me... coz everything seems so beautiful. Every single thing we laughed.
What rainbows are for if you are not here beside me to watch that beauty colors. What butterflies’ meaning if I don’t have wings to fly with you.
I see you as a sarcasm thing part of my life. I take you as you, not a single thing I would like to change.

I love you for something that I can’t find the reason. Might be…you are the reason itself. Might be love is the reason for anything I feel for you. Or it may not need any reason for it. Is it love or is it just me? Am I falling to you….or to the love itself?

I don’t know……..I can’t answer it. What I know is……I’ll be missing you if you are gone for once more. So in the name of something -- that I couldn’t find the reason……don’t ever go a way from me anymore. Coz, whatever the reason is………my life is more beautiful when you are in it. It is you who helped me to endure in this life….given me something to holding on, so I won’t sink for once more. You have given me a reason to believe that light is not betrayed me…..you have given me reasons for not questioning what the reason is. Would you please give me more than reasons to stick with it?

Sometimes I have to walk a way, coz I don’t know what you feel for me – close my eyes n take a deep breath to enjoying you. And somehow I have to find the right way to tell you that I want you to want me…..

Sepi yang gue rasain ini bukan lagi sepi yang biasa. Awalnya semua terasa hambar dan terlihat hitam-putih aja. Mulai terasa waktu gue masih heboh-hebohnya keluyuran café to café sampe subuh. Tergeletak lemaz tiap w’end, dehidrasi akibat alcohol semalem…bener-bener bikin gw mikir ‘this life isn’t worth living.’ So, as the 1^st step….I thought I have to quit from all of it. So my sequestered life had begun.
Hal pertama yang gw lakuin adalah menghilang. Menghilang dari lingkungan gw. I denied every invitation. Gw menenggelamkan diri kedalam otak gw dalem-dalem. Bener-bener menanyakan apa yang gw mau dengan hidup gw. Aktifitas gue lebih banyak tenggelam didalam buku-buku. Semua jenis bacaan gue embat finance, business, segala jenis novel, tabloid gosip, cell phone magazine – nonton stasiun TV berita luar negri, nonton segala jenis film…intinya gue sibuk ama diri sendiri, ah ya..ga lupa terus chatting hahahaha….
Amazingly…I feel that I’m happier, more alive and release my anger. Walau entah kenapa semangat hidup gue masih menurun sedikit demi sedikit. My excitement of life had gone fade. I haven’t found my ‘red spot.’ Until one day….
There was a guy, he said to me: “lemme be your red spot…lemme fill what is mizing in you life…in your heart. Coz whatever it is I wanna be it….coz I want you. And only you.” Fiuh…his words totally imaged me! I feel that I was wanted! Needed! And..BOOM! I’m alive. I felt so. Gw ngerasa hidup gw berwarna-warni lagi. Warna merah gw udah ketemu……….
Is he my red spot? Coz ‘till now….sometime, I still remember him and his words. I never felt that I’m wanted the way he did to me.
Ada saat dimana gue ngebutuhin orang lain..ada juga saat dimana ternyata gue lebih bahagia sendirian. Sendiri bukan berarti sepi – bukan berarti ga ada orang disekitar gue. Tapi sendiri deep down inside…..no one’s living in my heart. But the most important thing, don’t ever doubts whenever you want to disconnect yourself from someone or something that did not make you happy. Karena ternyata hidup ‘sendirian’ bukan berarti kesepian. Sequestered life isn’t that painful as your thought. We are all free on our mind. And finally…..Have you found your ‘red spot?’

Desperado part II (Undressed Me)

Look guys….sometimes we disagree with the way other people doing with their life. We just have 2 choices: like it or not. If we like it – compromise is a must. But if we don’t – we always have a choice to walk a way. So, don’t ever….ever….tell your comment about others’ life, keep it for yourself then no none get hurts.

I always respect everyone choices, whether I like it or not. Hell ya, they have their own life, dude! And I do have mine too! In a relationship with friends, lovers, co-workers, even our social life – we have to realize that everyone has a privilege of their life. It just because we have a different way of thought, doesn’t mean others are wrong. When we are talking about LIFE… we are not in a black or white area, there is also a gray one. Life is not just about RIGHT or WRONG. Life is about CHOICES not chances. And everyone has their choice to chosen… Its kinda thing that someone else must respected without cynical comment in sarcasm ways. When no more respect…life has no more freedom for anyone. HAVE MANNERS! RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE WAYS!

Undressed me….Undressed me - - let me free, at-least my heart. Undressed me…Undressed me - - remind me to be myself.